Love.....

Sometimes my heart just hurts. No its not the kind of pain that can be cured by tums, it is the kind caused by loving others. It is unfortunate that it doesn't seem possible to love and to be disconnected at least on some level to lessen the pain. We are just wired to love and to be loved. Is is worth it yes, but the pain that can be the end result is a real physical pain. I don't know how to ease this pain and there is a part of me that just wants to sob and fall apart. Yet I pretend to be strong and act as if nothing bothers me. The reality is that my heart and soul are mourning and crying out.